Personal history
Posted on Nov 13th, 2008
by
J~E~S~S
A question from Jared inspired me to share a little of my past here on Gaia.
I grew up in a slightly dysfunctional household; my mother was and still is clinically depressed due to extenuating circumstances in her early childhood years (they call that childhood trauma). When I was college age, I couldn't wait to move out of the house. I relocated to dorm life just a town or two away with no problems, and absolutely no homesickness.
I only attended for a year, and I made the dean's list, but I became disillusioned with life on campus. After that, I moved back home but tried my hardest to get a sustainable ticket away from home! I moved to MA with some friends and we searched for jobs for four months in a small town before any openings appeared. I don't know how we survived! We stayed there about a year and a half and then we moved back to MD.
I still wanted out of my parents house, so after many phone calls, I arranged a job for myself all the way on the opposite coast, as a live-in summer camp counselor for the Boys and Girls Club. I had a blast and learned a lot that summer, and as summer wound to a close, I needed to find a new place to stay.
I interviewed for a place at a group house; a Victorian style home with six unrelated people living together in a co-op sort of arrangement. I became the seventh by the skin of my teeth. This launched me on my new independent life, free of attachments to anyone!
Now, I'm in my late 30s and when I look at the youth around me (namely, my stepchildren and our neighbors), I don't find the same determination and strength that I showed in my early 20s. I wasn't afraid of anything! That enabled me to relocate on my own many more times as I matured. It seemed that God was always with me, that I always had the best guardian angels protecting me as I blundered around on the Earth. I'm thankful for that!
I grew up in a slightly dysfunctional household; my mother was and still is clinically depressed due to extenuating circumstances in her early childhood years (they call that childhood trauma). When I was college age, I couldn't wait to move out of the house. I relocated to dorm life just a town or two away with no problems, and absolutely no homesickness.
I only attended for a year, and I made the dean's list, but I became disillusioned with life on campus. After that, I moved back home but tried my hardest to get a sustainable ticket away from home! I moved to MA with some friends and we searched for jobs for four months in a small town before any openings appeared. I don't know how we survived! We stayed there about a year and a half and then we moved back to MD.
I still wanted out of my parents house, so after many phone calls, I arranged a job for myself all the way on the opposite coast, as a live-in summer camp counselor for the Boys and Girls Club. I had a blast and learned a lot that summer, and as summer wound to a close, I needed to find a new place to stay.
I interviewed for a place at a group house; a Victorian style home with six unrelated people living together in a co-op sort of arrangement. I became the seventh by the skin of my teeth. This launched me on my new independent life, free of attachments to anyone!
Now, I'm in my late 30s and when I look at the youth around me (namely, my stepchildren and our neighbors), I don't find the same determination and strength that I showed in my early 20s. I wasn't afraid of anything! That enabled me to relocate on my own many more times as I matured. It seemed that God was always with me, that I always had the best guardian angels protecting me as I blundered around on the Earth. I'm thankful for that!

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